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One where I was dumb was when I sold my then one of best friends a laptop and took his word for him going to pay a week later even though I knew he was a small time grifter. We were tight so I thought he wouldn’t screw me over but alas, believing in people is dumb.

The second was an online friend of many years and good emotional support one way and the other, but then out of the blue the dude starts spewing hate and straight up tells me he’s a nazi. Fuck that guy. Well fuck the first guy too, but at least I knew the devil back then.

Also grip for steering. Backwards facing teeth on the front wheel would just end up skidding a lot of the time and make the bike impossible to turn. Is there a video of this thing in action somewhere?

I guess, but the Energiewende must’ve been really expensive already and by my best guesstimation those upkeep costs would have been small in comparison. What irks me more about the situation is wrapping shutting down the nuclear plants in a guise of green policy while simultaneously supporting a huge coal industry. Very happy for all the renewables, still.

We stopped our atom plants and have a plan out of coal.

Yeah you folks did this in the wrong order.

I’m still standing despite everything so a 7 minimum.

Onedrive seems to think they are magnanimously letting me peek at their files on their servers, instead of having copies of my files backed up to the cloud. I once turned off syncing for a folder containing game save files, since Onedrive kept spamming me with emails warning about many files being deleted at once every time the game deleted old auto saves. Turning off the sync deleted my local files. Fuck Onedrive.

I think it was my sons pants to make him laugh.

Huh, I’ve always just bought small trashbags, never crossed my mind to just grab the whole roll of those produce bags. Still might not, feels wrong to just take them. :)

Best: full size Snickers bars

Worst: full size Snickers bars but you have peanut allergy

I was locked up in one for a couple of weeks after I tried to kill myself, and the only thing that experience did for me is to make sure I keep the ideas to myself next time so no one can interfere. Must be something about the locked doors that turns psychiatric nurses into prison guards mentally, but none of them apart from a trainee from abroad was pleasant to deal with and one was a proper nurse Ratchet. I’ll give you a snippet of her professional behavior and care for the mental wellbeing of the patients.

I was laying on a sofa in the common area reading a book after lunchtime, and had not seen a single other person for about half an hour. Also there was another sofa just like the one I was on and two armchairs in the room. Enter nurse:

-I have to ask you to get off that sofa.

-What? Why?

-Someone might want to come in and sit on it.

-But there’s plenty of other places here to sit, also I’ve not seen anyone around for a good while anyway.

-But they might want to sit right there anyway.

-What about me wanting to be right here now?

-Stop being difficult!

-Did you want to sit here?

-You have five seconds to get off that sofa or I’ll get the orderlies and we’ll sedate you!

Fuckin power tripping bitch.

edit: So many typos…

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Dying sounds kind of nice though, not going to lie.

The Rifters trilogy and Blindsight are also free to download on the authors website. Easily worth taking a look for anyone who enjoys dark themes in their scifi.

Don’t believe the hype.

Haven’t seen, will add to the shortlist. Thanks for the recommendation!

No health care professional ever told me that depression can be something that’s just a part of who I am, and that maybe there is no getting rid of it. Rens message in the video feels so genuine and real that instead of passing it over as just another piece of pop culture, I stopped to really listen and think about what he’s saying about managing your darker tendencies and learning to live with them. The song has maybe helped me accept myself a bit better, but as I said, it’s still a bit too early to call if it’s an actually permanent and useful effect.

It’s a bit early to say if it’s life changing, but Hi Ren made me reassess my thought patterns and negative self talk in ways therapy never could, which is pretty damn powerful for a musical performance.

Listened to music, read some books, played nursery rhyme games, chewed on toys, bathed, laughed, napped, all the good stuff.

Thanks for asking, today has been great. Got to sleep in, got some chores done and spent loads of time with my 4 month old. Tired as always, though. Some 'rona in the family too so hoping not to catch that.

Not being chronically ill.