There’s this guy in my neighbourhood who apparently I find very attractive 😂 I didn’t realize that until recently, I always avoided him until one day I had to talk to him and I turned red and started smiling like an idiot.
This happened twice and both times, when I got home, I started crying… not because of what happened, but it felt as if I was losing something??
All I know about this “reaction” is that this guy isn’t my usual type, I just find him physically attractive and when I get home I cry and think about those guys I actually felt a lot for (mostly platonically) and it hurts 🤕 wtf
And today I was almost telling myself to “stay on track”??? Like thinking about the others and thinking “that’s the life you want, that’s what would make you happy” and just wishing this didn’t have such an effect on me.
I am older, and wanted to say there have been a few random guys who were enormously sexually attractive to me but not on their looks or personality or anything, and I always figured it was just some sort of biological compatibility, that my body recognized they would make healthy babies or something like that.
This sounds similar to what you have going on here, and it’s safe to ignore it. It is puzzling, that feeling, but no way does it mean you’d get along well with someone.