It’s not that I can’t. The problem is that when I’m with someone, I deeply yearn to be alone. I’d love to have my life for myself, with no responsibility with no one else - just me.
But then, when I’m alone, I feel like a failure, like I need a relationship to feel complete, and I fucking hate that. So I end up in another relationship, and after two years I can’t stand it anymore, and the cycle repeats.
What the hell. Has anyone suffered from something like that? How can you be alone and not feel lonely? How to kill this need to be with someone?
EDIT: Thanks for all the answers, I’m taking every single one into consideration. Please, keep them coming.
You need someone who is low maintenance like yourself. Someone who doesn’t need constant validation from you to feel complete. Or a friend with benefits. Both exist but can be tricky to find.
I don’t see any claim by OP that the relationship issue is from maintenance. Sounds like they want to examine themselves and their feelings a bit deeper.