But that’s the thing, I’ve seen “cold” being used, not “cool”, and I find it weird as hell.

I’ll go against the grain and give you a straight answer.

Yes. You should leave Israel and never go back.

You owe nothing to your country. If you have the possibility to live in a good European country, do it. You’re no martyr. You’re not billionaire rich. And unless you’re a really high rank offcial, an important politician, or want to sacrifice your entire life to a cause, you have no reason to waste your short life in pain.

We’re in a silly blue rock between a billion trillion systems, none of which care about you. Your existence is not even a blimp in the context of the universe. You’re not important at all. So why waste and suffer on behalf of a thing you have absolutely no control? Be happy, be comfortable, and make those around you happy and comfortable.

Life is pretty hard already, there’s no need to make it harder. Go and be happy.

Quick addendum: I’m not saying that because its Israel. I’m saying that in the context of any country. You owe nothing to it, a piece of land that you manage to be birthed on by being really lucky or unlucky. If you can rectify that and move to a better country to you, you should do it instead of suffering.

I used to use and love miniflux, but then they migrated to Golang and PostgreSQL, neither which are supported by my shared hosting (namecheap).

I use Freshrss now.

I use my phone to read books. Every micro break is a couple or more of paragraphs I read. I lost count of how many books I already finished instead of just doomscrolling…

I read about those you pointed out and the avoidant attachment style ticks some boxes… It’s definitely something I’ll bring up on the next session, thanks!

This is something I have to take into consideration, thank you very much for your reply.

I have trouble giving, specially after surviving a long abusive marriage. I divorced years ago but I guess some scars still remains.

That’s really interesting, and for some reason something I never thought it was possible. Thank you.

This… I never thought about that, it makes sense. It’s definitely something I’ll look into too, thank you.

I try… I do play guitar and I like to draw, and ride my motorcycle, but then… I don’t know, I feel empty. I look at these things and enjoy doing them a lot, but when I stop I start asking, what’s the point? Nobody will see this or hear this or whatever. Why even bother? When I’m alone and go to a show or watch a movie I always enjoy the moment but get that dread after the deed, the “you’re doing this alone and this is wrong” feeling.

This is definitely an issue, I do have low self-esteem and getting older is not helping my case. Everything physical is getting harder to do and taking a toll both physical and mentally, which is a tough pill to swallow because I was always very active. Getting old sucks.

That’s really interesting, I’ll look into it. I’m doing therapy for a year now and decided to ask here to see if you people could give me insights to talk to my therapist. I’ll take these to her too, thank you very much.

You’re right, I’m doing therapy for a year now but things works really slow. I’m talking a lot about this with my therapist, and thought that asking here could bring me some insights to discuss with her. Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate it.

I think so, yes, but then my girlfriend likes to be around and is really upset when I ask to be alone. She’s not wrong thought, because if left by myself I can disappear for a long time…

To me, it’s a mix of feeling like a failure and feeling that nothing quite matters. I mean, I do get to do things I enjoy, and I enjoy it a lot, but I never feel satisfied - I just feel empty. It’s kinda like having a feeling of obligation to be with someone, and that’s there’s something wrong with me for being alone. Like a nagging voice in the back of my head saying “this is not ok”. I don’t know if this makes sense.

COURAGE!!

COURAGE!!

There’s many communities I miss, but without third party apps that place became unbearable. The equivalent ones are not as active, but i can actually read and participate in discussions here.

They just write it off!

That’s… Not very much in this context. Makes me think that WB is penny pinching, which doesn’t make too much sense. Wouldn’t it be better to release the movie and profit from it than just having a 21% discount?

I don’t know, just thinking loud here…