We have all seen those memes about how seeing people Info-dump is the hottest thing ever, but even in normal conversations listening to people talk is chore in of itself. I get bored quickly and look somewhere else or interrupt them with my own thoughts or try to predict what they are going to say.
It feels like i am more interest in myself and what i care about than what the other person has to say,who they are or what they care about.
And yes, i am aware how beyond self-centered that is and i do wish to work on that but i am also wondering if others have similar experience.
I go through phases with similar thoughts, and it very much depends how comfortable I am with life. An aspect of my mask (audhd) is channeling patience as a form of love…something I struggle to understand. Do I tell people close to me that I’d rather not listen to what they are saying, or do I stay patient and engaged to show them that I appreciate that they are in my life? It can be super draining, and I often need time to recharge. I recognize that I enjoy when people are engaged when I talk about my interests, so even if it’s sometimes a lie, I’ll stay engaged for the people I care about to return the favor.