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  • Exactly. It’s a matter of scale as well. The “No eat… only focus” isn’t “Oh hey, I was having so much fun I’m having lunch an hour late”. It’s more like “I’m not sure I was even having fun, I was just FOCUSED. Now it’s multiple hours past the time to eat, I’m in strong physical pain due to intense hunger and feel off balance/sick from the tanked blood sugar.”

    How often, how extreme, how much of it is a concious choice vs something you can’t stop even if you are aware it’s happening.

    Much like other neurodivergences. Most symptoms will be stuff that even neurotypicals experience occasionally, which leads to “I feel sad sometimes too. Have you just tried being happy?”.



  • wizardbeard@lemmy.dbzer0.comtoAsklemmy@lemmy.mlWhat keeps you going?
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    If you take nothing else from this thread: That’s not “just autism”.

    And the goal of working with a professional wouldn’t be to “delete your autism” like holy shit lmao that is so off base I would think you were a shitposter if I hadn’t met other people like you before.


    There are dangerous thought patterns, shit that does nothing but erode your trust in the existence of an external reality. I don’t have the proper words to describe the level of danger to yourself and those around you that you can cause if you don’t believe foundational aspects of external reality.

    This is really something you need to discuss with professionals.




  • You might have better results working with a doctor and getting perscriptions for the mind altering drugs that assist you.

    Trying to trust your own brain to self assess what works and doesn’t while actively messing with its chemistry it uses to do that assessment… it can work, but it’s definitely choosing to do it on hard mode.





  • I’m already seeing a permutation of this at my workplace with Microsoft’s low/no code automation frameworks. Power Platform I believe is the name. Also seeing it with some other proprietary automation tools.

    While I respect the motivation of these business folks to try and automate their processes, it’s distressing watching these people slap together something of equivalent quality to what I’d expect from freshman in an intro to programming course (I’ve been an assistant for some of those classes, it’s not pretty) and then try and balance all sorts of business critical stuff on top of their mess.

    What is extra frustrating is that we already have in-house software devs for this sort of stuff. They’re already understaffed, but this motivation for automation could be a perfect opportunity to right-size that team, build a proper “tech project management” group, and really start to lean hard into making the best use of all these tools. Instead, a few enterprising project managers took a single continuing education course for some proprietary automation software and somehow got the office politics clout to spin it into an entire department based around their little pet system.

    Meanwhile I’m sitting here in Systems Admin and Enterprise Architecture land watching these half assed “solutions” eating absurd amounts of resources to do shit that could be accomplished with a small DB and maybe 1k lines of code.

    No, you cannot have a VM with a fucking 1TB drive. We’ve seen the files that go into and out of your current systems and if you found some way to bloat those into anywhere close to 1TB then something is seriously wrong.

    PowerBI especially, they keep sending all their queries to the first gateway server we built instead of spreading them over the multiple ones we have. The end up maxing out the RAM and bringing the primary gateway down. Now, it should automatically offload new queries to the other gateways when one gets full, but queries are handled by batch, so if one batch is too big it can’t split that batch over multiple gateway servers. We’ve reached the point where we can’t just add more resources to the VM, they need to split shit up better.


    So I guess all this is to say that it’s already happening to a limited degree. I don’t enjoy being a gatekeeper, but so many fucking people need so much more training before they start trying to automate shit, and the ever increasing marketing of “you don’t need to have a single coherent thought in your head to become a process efficiency master” is fucking poison.

    What’s the saying? Rather have a lazy smart person than an industrious idiot?


  • So this is your project? Judging from your username here and the test messages shown in your screenshot here and on the Github. Nemesis.

    Brand new lemmy account with only this post on it.

    And the entire Github codebase is made up of a single commit of all the files 2 hours ago as of the time I’m commenting.

    As I’ve said before with similar posts from (I believe) other users/coders: just be up front about if something you’re posting was your weekend project or just something to fill out a portfolio.





  • Yes, but here’s the trick: No one will be sitting around at the end of your life with a checklist of what you should have accomplished.

    While there’s a gratification to pushing yourself and your limits, there is also gratification to be found in just being. In enjoying where you are and what you have.

    Slow progress is still progress. The ability to do amazing in bursts doesn’t mean that you can keep up that effort/quality constantly, which is what many “normies” and authority figures when you’re young seem to miss.

    You’re the one who gets to choose what you try to compete at, and the older I get the more comfortable I am with just competing against my own self. Myself a day ago, a month ago, a few years ago.


  • By the time I was 9, I decided life was not worth living and have not changed my mind at 45 years old. […] I still feel like no one wants me around.

    While this is a side effect of the trauma precipitated by people treating you badly due to your ADHD, and depression is common with ADHD… this level of depression is not inherent to ADHD, and I’d posit that the depression type stuff has more to do with your feelings on children than your ADHD directly does.

    I think there’s a lot of people choosing not to have children due to depression and other issues of mental health leading them to feel like bringing a child into this world would be cruel.

    Mid 30s, ADHD diagnosis when I was six, been on the same meds for it since 18. Medicated for depression starting around a decade ago. Medicated for anxiety for around five years. Narcisist ADHD mother, neglectful ADHD father (both undiagnosed). Grandfather was highly likely autistic.

    Two year old daughter and another on the way. Determined not to repeat my parent’s mistakes and abuse. Daughter is the light of my life, best decision I’ve ever made.