Ah is it different for us audhd folks?

Agreed. I have been pursuing math, but no matter how hard I try, I do not seem to be good enough at it.

I wish I can talk endlessly like that. Sometimes it feels as if I am nonverbal…

The space itself has canonical curvature >.>

I am basically autistic with ADHD, so I personally doubt that would work…

That sounds likely for my high school days, but not for middle school ones. That said, people were likely less mature in middle school. I feel like I am very bad at masking, I wonder if it is in effect at all.

Asking to people a bit far away will be even more weird behavior. Currently, most people do not sit near me.

I am too scared to do this in classroom…

No

Considering my high school life, it was kind of opposite - I had handful of friends then, but they went different path and it became hard to keep contact with. Others basically hated me, making fun of me and borderline bullying me.

I did become isolated in uni, I think I did stay away from others. Was too scared of making a mistake.

Thanks again, will do!

Thanks for kind words, I’d say my smartness is just that I took tons of time to learn. You can learn lots of knowledge given time, even math! Tho indeed, not everyone has time for learning, so it is okay to not know something! :)

Thanks, I see that it could be related. That said, I’ve spoken about this issue to many doctors and psychiatrists, and it did not help - doctors just raised dosage, and psychiatrists told me to actually talk with people. Problem is, with my social anxiety, it is so difficult to talk with people…

I see, but I am worried that the behaviors they hate on is exactly the autistic & social anxiety behaviors I exhibit.

I feel people are badmouthing me since I am hearing words like weirdo, freak, or disabled. It can be illusory, but I do think I hear them. It’s that my parents and psychiatrists say it cannot be real, so I might be mistaking something.

Oh, does RSD symptom include the illusory hearing about badmouthing? That aside, I do think only some actively participates in badmouthing behavior, and many might be ambivalent. I am not sure about this, though.

Thanks! I suspect that it continues from my high school and uni days where I was belittled a lot. The momentum is hard to overcome. That said, that people talking bad about me right now can be an illusion.

I do not have particular interest other than gaming, tho I can maybe pursue an interest. Chess club sounds good, perhaps I’d try that!

Hmm, another person commented here that attending seminar is like outsider acting like an insider. How do you think about it?

No, I don’t think they explain anything about why.