melitele

More or less, its also way less exhausting now that i have the full picture, thank you <3

Thought my problem was ADHD, turns out i was ADHD and also trans unkowingly living with heavy disphoria

Is that sarcasm? I hope its sarcasm. It’s all mafia

Jesus christ the comments in this thread…

A fitting metaphor, if bleak

Mmm i get it know yeah, that stimuli that pushes you forward, fear can be harnessed and not just be a stopping force. Gotta say with the antidepressants starting to work i feel like i have the eneegy to feel and think something else other than desperation, finally

But i am panicked about everything, about my brain fog, my incapability of communicating or even wanting to comunicate with people, inability to cope with the world materially and morally crumbling down.

And mostly, panicked about my inability to not feel numb constantly about my panic

I don’t know if i have depression, but i starter to get curious about gender dysphoria and many things seem to resonate. Depersonalization and derealization mostly…i know there are comorbidities but it feels like a rouge to investigate

I havent gotten the chance to start efexor yet. Tomorrow ill have it tho.

Also your feedback on weed was helpful, when i start stimulants again i will do my best not to smoke

Thank you

I have a diagnosis but meds didn’t work, possibly because i live a pretty much sheltered life and was never forced into work, i did some jobs but i never lasted more than a year. The last 3 years i spent smoking weed and postponing my waking up. Now i’m trying psychotherapy again and i’ve been prescribed efexor.

But i feel more hopeless and spent than ever. I can’t feel interest nor curiosity about anything. Social interactions are pain, and what’s worse is that even with my closest friends it is now like that. I just feel like I’m not interested or capable of conversing with them, cause I feel no interest in any thing anymore…

if you follow MAD theory you could consider Nukes a defensive weapon…

i bet it’s nukes

Shame, anxiety, restlessness

Man it got worse in ways i didn’t think possible.

So convinced i understood myself and i actually masterminded my soul into stagnation…

…but a hand come out of the mud

When the threats come from governaments you suddenly stop caring i bet

Nature’s fighting back

Ehrm…another pope?

Donnie the Commie

It’s just a catalyst. Or rather a mirror

Thought Orange was a nickname foe trump lol

He got it right, the Universe has no gender, and has all genders, he just can’t accept reality