i have been undiagnosed for 27 years and have struggled sith suicidal thoughts since puberty because my parents always told me that i am intelligent and that im just behaving that way because i am an asshole, it can be fucking hard not to off yourself.
but it will get better as you approach your 30s. dont do shit that will get you addicted folks, everything can change, and addiction on adhd is extremely hard to beat, so please, dont do addictive drugs unless ypu really want to fuck your mind and body up.
but always remember: it will get easier from year to year, and this isnt just a phrase, it can and will happen the more you learn about yourself and the difference to others.
the forbidden orange juice