Mine is porn addiction. I don’t ever want to become a coomer but I think I’ve became that already a few times in my life. I shamefully have watched porn, saved porn images and visualized people who’re probably not as into porn as I was.
I really do wish to be done with porn, it’s done nothing for me. I’ve masturbated for many years and I feel like it has hollowed out my mind. I don’t even get that much enjoyment from masturbating as much and the porn hasn’t really gotten any better so I guess I can say that I’ve seen porn when it was at its best when I was younger and everything.
Now all of it is just loli shit, artificial shit and that’s gross or the fetishes have gotten too niche and unappealing. I look around me in porn communities and I haven’t found anyone worthwhile to speak to or associate with. Everyone is six feet under in porn that there’s no way for them out.
I have tried to explain to people what is like to be hungry all the time not matter what you do. AT one point I was 265 pounds and getting bigger. I did cut out sodas and it helped me lose weight. I am to 201 now and I I do not run 3 to 5 miles 3 days a week and bike the other days the weight comes right back. I was sick all last winter and in May I was 235. I take Ozempic 2mm shots and Metformin twice a day. I measure every thing I eat. and if I break the routine one day like on Thanksgiving I pa for it for a week because the weight comes right back over a few days. The struggle I have drags me down. I would like to have a beer or a burger every now and then but any thing with carbohydrates just make the weight pile on. The food noise in my head is deafening. It is all I think about. My doctor said the Ozempic would quiet the noise but it has done nothing.
Envious of the people with good metabolisms who can practically eat everything in one day and gain maybe…1 pound.
Feels like anything I eat I’m going to gain like 10 pounds despite how light it was.