I couldn’t get my boss to understand, and I couldn’t tell her that even though she explained it to me 3 times, and each time it made sense in the moment, every time I sat down to start on it it I couldn’t make heads or tails of what exactly I was supposed to doing.
This is why my manager made printed sheets of the tasks we have to do at the end of the day. There’s an intense transition at the end of my work day (I work with kids, and after they go home, we have to shift gears to do paperwork before we can leave.) When I started, I had trouble remembering and keeping track of all the different things we have to do at that point. So I asked my manager to write them down. She did one better. She made a list, printed several copies, and passed them out to all the new hires.
Those tasks have become part of my routine, so I don’t need the list anymore. But I keep it in my locker so I can double-check when I go to leave but have the feeling of, “Did I forget to do something?”
What I’ve noticed since I started medication is that IF I do actually sit down to do the thing now I’m more capable of actually doing it. However, actually sitting down to do it is still just as difficult. Which kind of makes being medicated just mean I’m really good at doing the things I’m not supposed to be doing.
With meds and caffeine if I decide to do it I can.
But if I find a reason to not (breakfast first, let me finish [not make, finish the whole thing] my coffee, let me just catch up on this creator, they made a new thing) I’ll do that thing and then actually forget and do another thing and now its 3pm and dang its ruined might as well finish this one thing before I do it anyway, oh its time to sleep
I couldn’t get my boss to understand, and I couldn’t tell her that even though she explained it to me 3 times, and each time it made sense in the moment, every time I sat down to start on it it I couldn’t make heads or tails of what exactly I was supposed to doing.
This is why my manager made printed sheets of the tasks we have to do at the end of the day. There’s an intense transition at the end of my work day (I work with kids, and after they go home, we have to shift gears to do paperwork before we can leave.) When I started, I had trouble remembering and keeping track of all the different things we have to do at that point. So I asked my manager to write them down. She did one better. She made a list, printed several copies, and passed them out to all the new hires.
Those tasks have become part of my routine, so I don’t need the list anymore. But I keep it in my locker so I can double-check when I go to leave but have the feeling of, “Did I forget to do something?”
I relate so hard to this🫣
Oh, that is part of the ADHD package as well? Nice to have an explanation to some of my experiences now.
New experiences and endeavors are often paralyzing to start because of this
What I’ve noticed since I started medication is that IF I do actually sit down to do the thing now I’m more capable of actually doing it. However, actually sitting down to do it is still just as difficult. Which kind of makes being medicated just mean I’m really good at doing the things I’m not supposed to be doing.
Same.
With meds and caffeine if I decide to do it I can.
But if I find a reason to not (breakfast first, let me finish [not make, finish the whole thing] my coffee, let me just catch up on this creator, they made a new thing) I’ll do that thing and then actually forget and do another thing and now its 3pm and dang its ruined might as well finish this one thing before I do it anyway, oh its time to sleep
You just described most of days.