Nice. Software developer, gamer, occasionally 3d printing, coffee lover.
You might tell yourself in retrospect that you consciously made that decision to deepen it and twist it, but with the adrenaline, panic, fear? You instinctually reacted to survive, and the fact you were able to withdraw from the situation before inflicting greater harm is a testament to the fact it wasn’t cruel.
Cruel? Of the places to be stabbed, the belly is probably one of the least severe ones, especially on males, so long as you get medical attention. Stabbing in a limb could result in long term damage much more easily.
You were in the process of being strangled, even if in hindsight you think you did, you weren’t making a choice with any thought of it being cruel or not. There was likely adrenaline at that point, and panic. No one could successfully argue you had the presence of mind to make a conscious decision to be cruel.
I’m sure you’ll have lifelong trauma, and might need to seek therapy if you aren’t already receiving it. It sounds like a part of what you’re experiencing is a form of survivor’s guilt. But no, how you got yourself out of that situation wasn’t cruel.
Holy shit, 10,000 commits because each change was individual (I’m assuming automated).
Sounds like you’re describing that you view how he is depicted as a good role model. I think the best way to describe it would just be “I’m atheist/agnostic/etc but view Jesus as a good role model” or something to that effect.
Or just lean into chaos and go with “Jesus is my role model” with no elaboration and let people make of it what they will.
Yup. Toyota Yaris '15 stock. Lowest trim they offer.
My car is a 2015 and didn’t come with a cruise control lol :(.
To be fair, I can drive at and maintain a consistent speed without it, though I didn’t have to often thanks to stop and go traffic 🎉.
Programming and self hosting the results when I was ~14 is what led me to a tech background. No university, but I’ve been working professionally in both IT and software for over a decade and self hosting even longer.
When it comes to commits, single feature / scoped commits are quality. So this git history is actually underwhelming if the author is full time. This is a good read.
I’ve been told they’re a projection put in the sky by God to test our faith lol.
When I was young, around 10, I was bored. We had one shitty desktop and no internet 99% of the time (we had dial up but only 1 landline, and my mom used the phone alot). We were also homeschooled, and the software teaching us was on that computer. I found the software documentation which was in HTML, and used that to make my own “website”.
Even before then though I had a draw to tinkering with computers. After a bit I convinced my mom to get me intro to C++ by Bjarne Stroustrup, and messed with that for a good year or so. Then we upgraded to DSL when I was around 13 and I got into Roblox and learned Lua, then other languages.
monotropism
Oh goddamnit not another one! I always just labeled that quirk as a symptom of my ADHD lol
As a neurodivergent who has aphantasia and can’t visualize, not like this at all. For me it’s more like, what I need is there when I need it (usually), not in a visual sense but a conceptual sense.
For me personally I don’t have much control over my empathy. Sure I can look at someone and glean their emotional state based on conscious guessing, but my “affective empathy” as you put it, is more my brain subconsciously picking up on their emotional state and then sharing it.
For most emotions, including anger, it’s not targeted. Not until I actively participate in the emotion. It’s also not something that applies to everyone and every situation, with my own personal emotions easily overriding the empathetic emotions.
Of course, everyone experiences empathy their own way.
Growing up my parents had a Jesus on the cross statue carved out of coal. Does that count?
I work two jobs and have no days off but Friday is the start of not having to drive the next morning so yeah, in a way.
When I first came across that wisdom I realized my desire in a relationship was to just pour myself into the other person, basically worship them. But not for their benefit, but to distract myself from myself. It’s fairly easy to see how that goes wrong.
I’m still learning, and I’ve found even more stuff I need to work on, but either I get there or I don’t, what matters if I never stopped trying.
I found that same nugget just under a decade ago. Dropped off the dating scene to work on myself. It really made me reflect. I’m still working on myself and honestly I suspect I will be for a while to come.
I’ve been using Porkbun for over 5 years and haven’t had any issues. I switched from a mix of Google Domains and Namecheap.
Generally the country based TLDs have that problem. That isn’t unique to porkbun or .de
60C is when PLA starts to warp, but even lower is when it starts to degrade. 6 years is more than enough for this level of degradation even in a less volatile environment.