Back in the last century, iirc, or the very early 2000’s, I logged-out of my desktop ( linux ) one time & discovered there was a new user on my machine…

the new username was “you are dead”.

1st time I knew I’d been cracked.

Not a nice feeling.

Educational, however, & motivating…

did me good.

I’m glad the person was more interested in communicating my trusting foolishness to me, than in doing real harm…

_ /\ _

From what I’ve read, thus-far, prohibiting autotools would be a good 1st-step.

Then auditing all the damn ocean-of-vulnerability-in-a-single-crufty-swamp dependencies, & getting committed about clarity & accountability in packages, would probably be required.

I read an article, a couple years ago, about web-frameworks…

The guy doing the writing said he found they were often malware, or corrupt, or trojans, or utter-bullshit…

Haskell’s got a kind of mantram: don’t bring in a whole framework, just compose what you need, yourself, together.

Its a granularity-difference.

Requiring a framework, which itself requires other frameworks, as that guy was pointing-out ( he wasn’t interested in Haskell ), is a liability nightmare.

But the culture of just having an infinite bring-in of frameworks & libraries, so one can write a little, easy code, is a culture that is biting the world’s security in the ass.

It cannot be, that people just include everything from everywhere, & somehow have secure/trustworthy systems.

To have a secure, trustworthy system, one needs to know that one has disincluded corruption/malicious-code.

That requires limiting what’s included, that includes auditing, that includes accountability, that includes having understandable, sufficiently-clear stuff that one is including.

Consistently, at all levels, relentlessly.

It’s a chain: you cannot have a weak-link without compromising the whole chain.

You cannot compromise ANY subsystem in a distro, & have a trustworthy distro.

There are 2 contradictory paradigms: the “magic bullet paradigm”, which doesn’t care how much rot, compromise, anything, so long as they include the “magic bullet” which takes-out the competitor…

… vs the “no weak-points, whatsoever, paradigm”, which doesn’t rely on magic, it relies on defense-in-depth, and carefulness, and everybody working coherently, etc, in order to disallow corruption/malicious-actors any leverage/grasp on us.

They are cultures, not just ideas.

Some people cannot tolerate a “no weak-points” culture, they “NEED” to compromise things ( I don’t care about the bugs, get more features in!!" ), and they must be put out into the other organizations/operations, because they CANNOT tolerate careful-paradigm.

It truly is a culture, or “religion”, and there’s no faking it.

Look to OpenBSD, & see what it takes to be like them…

You’d probably want to segregate the hard-tech from the soft/bio-tech:

IF you require deterministic-performance, THEN stay away from meat-implimentation.

IF you require sentience-sensitivity, THEN stay away from hard-tech implimentation.

( same principle as requiring both people & systems, in order to project effective force, economically, militarily, in disaster-relief, in any domain,

same principle as using both a wordsless-wholistic metaphor-understanding sentience in one’s right-hemisphere, vs a reductionistic sentience in one’s left, as the split-brain patients showed.

2 orthogonal systems, collaborating … produces greater results than either-kind would on its own! )

Organic-sentience and machine-compute, organic doing the high-level-decisions, & machines doing the low-level-competencies, seems much more realistic.

A Corporation is:

• an incorporated “person”, that
• is legally-obliged to be psychotic, narcissistic, machiavellian, sociopathic-psychopathic, and short-termist/nihilist, using all the systemic-dishonesty that it can, for gain
• the only dimension of the DarkHexad that it isn’t obliged to be, is sadistic… that’s optional.
• it cannot ever be put in prison, because it’s a herd, not an individual: it can dissipate, but it cannot die, or be forced to experience karma: only individuals can be truly-accountable.

( DarkHexad:

• narcissistic
• machiavellian
• sociopathic-psychopathic
• nihilist
• sadist
• systemic-dishonesty )

( all this to say that the legalistically-enacted-treason of granting “personhood” to corporations killed strategic-viability for all countries, and the highjacking-of-the-world’s-economy AND the world’s-governments, by corporations, is global unfolding proof.

What should have happened, is a separate category of pseudopersons should have been created, with systematically-limited rights, including prohibiting the things from interfering in elections,

but that would have required some real integrity & spine… )

( finally, for anybody so young/naive as to believe that charities are inherently-good, go volunteer in the management of one for a few years, & then see how you view integrity… )

check out Funtoo, instead of Gentoo:

it’s the guy who began Gentoo, doing an improved version.

https://www.funtoo.org/Welcome

Consider a kit-car.

Science: the ruthlessly-objective, systematic, progressive annihilation of both direct & indirect ignorance, no matter what that does to one’s worldview.

THE keystone book in understanding this, is Douglas Hofstadter’s brilliant “Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid”, which hammers that if one remains within a self-consistent formal-system-of-knowing, then it ISN’T POSSIBLE for one to be knowing Universe-complete, and that is mathematical fact.

Journalism, real journalism, is the essence of science, just without the hard-rigor.

Anybody who isn’t competent in understanding what Hofstadter’s book means, isn’t competent in philosophy.

https://www.amazon.com/Gödel-Escher-Bach-Eternal-Golden/dp/0465026567/

https://www.amazon.com/Elements-Journalism-Revised-Updated-4th-ebook/dp/B08ZXRQLZT/

“That which isn’t matter, DOESN’T EXIST.”

That is materialism.

“God: The Failed Hypothesis”, by Victor Stenger, iirc, was the book that made me see what the fundamentalist materialists were saying.

Unreadable gaslighting, materialist dogma is.

The whole “The Hard Problem” of Consciousness is produced by the definition of “real” to be identical-with “matter”.

Artifact-of-the-view.

aka prejudice.

You deem it delusion that the Soul-memories of some of its other-lives/incarnations nuked my Catholic upbringing?

lol

I changed my worldview as a direct result of evidence, and that took years, because the smashing-of-assumptions was sooo profound…

… and you are gloriously certain that it is only my delusion, because it is axiomatic that That Cannot Validly Be,

and you deem me incompetent in Science?

That is funny.

I’ve proven unable to put my proper, revised, with systematic links to things, including a scientific paper proving that Western Medicine has been gaslighting an entire category of patients, up, and I’ve downvoted my comment that you replied-to, to make it no-longer-significant on this discussion,

but I’m leaving it up, so that all the denigration can be visible, and everybody, for all time, can laugh at the “defective” that I am, who wrote a spur-of-the-moment 1000-word comment, and didn’t get it hammered-out perfectly-clearly.

Feel free to denigrate my replacement comment, which had to be posted in 2 parts, because of some kind of character-limit, possibly at 10k chars.

Wishing you well, but your contempt for my understanding is insulting, and your presumption that knowing-of-previous-lives-of-one’s-continuum is delusion axiomatically, is also insulting.

Awareness is simultaneously immaterial AND real.

All “science” which ignores/denies that, isn’t science, it is ideological-addiction/prejudice, and gaslighting.

At population-scale, so long as you don’t have either a population primed with materialist prejudice, or with anti-subtle-awareness-habits like eating pork or eggs, it is entirely possible to test whether reincarnation is real,

and there are multiple books on the scientific testing of such, as with documenting a child’s remembering of some previous-life, and then going to that part of the world & doing the history-research to discover that what that kid said, was true.

Don’t do the research, if it’d violate your assumption-river/religion, though, obviously: devout materialism is comforting for you, then remain in it, if you want, and glory in the amassed Authority which contempts my empiricism & objectivity.

“The Boy Who Knew Too Much”, is, iirc, 1 of the available options, though there is another book which is, apparently, a huge & dry scientific work, yellowish cover, iirc.

Salut, Namaste, & Kaizen, but I hope we never meet:

The intersection of Empiricist-Objectivity & Kaizen is the ONLY TRUE assumption-river/religion, in my eyes, and whatever cosmology works most-completely, not most-self-consistently, but most-completely, is what I need to hold to,

…and that you have already deemed axiomatically to be only delusion.

Good.

Honour your path.

*** BEGINNING OF PART2 ***

Pyrrol-disorder ( amygdala-hijack always pressuring, and ambushing/breaking one into PTSD-RAGE, with any “straw that broke the camel’s back” ), was treated best with the mixture of Zinc Gluconate, Zinc Picolinate, Arachidonic-acid-precursor Evening Primrose Oil ( 2 big capsules / day ), and P5P form of one of the Vitamin B’s.

This gave me the ONLY experience I’ve ever had, in my life, of not-fighting-the-pressure-of-pending-amygdala-hijack-every-second, and it left me … HAPPY. Never experienced anything like that, before…

Why’d I quit it? I’m an old-testament Vajrayana, & meditation must be my primary-weapon of self-conquering, not pills, AND taking Zinc every 6 hours was a brutal regime, and it was razor’s-edge chemical-balance to maintain.

Walsh is right that people with pyrrol-disorder ( which wrongly eradicates zinc from our bodies, leaving too-little for normal management of copper, or for methylation-of-DNA for that matter ) require dangerous ( to others! ) levels of metals-intake to reach correct-balancing between copper & zinc. I was taking enough to probably kill any non-pyrrol-disorder person: 4x the Tolerable Upper Limit. It worked, though, exactly as Walsh indicated.

So:

Solitude, & systematically healing food, & the corrections for 2 epigenetic-disorders that Western Medicine won’t allow are real ( because it’d GUT authority-based psychiatry if the evidence were admitted ), that demonstrated exactly what actually is wrong, and gave me leverage in owning my life, more completely.

Next?

• EVIDENCE-based knowing.

.: Scientific Method & Objectivity is itself one of the therapies I broke the gaslighting of doctors ( and medical-professional parents ) with, and so must be considered a valid therapy, too.

Kaizen, aka relentless evolving, as one’s personal Religion.

( my cosmology is Vajrayana, simply because Universe’s-speech, aka Evidence, broke the worldviews I was brought-up in.

Ramakrishna Vivekananda too contempted the prejudice masquerading as “science”, that I call Scientism, which presumes materialism, and therefore presumes that Awareness/Knowing/Meaning/Will can’t be real, but that is prejudice: all those are testable and objectively-real.

What produces cities, if awareness/knowing/meaning/will don’t exist??

“Randomness & mindless statistical process”, according to fundamentalist materialism’s dogma. )

Some have even tested entanglement in the macro-scale by experiment:

• the experiment of having dog-owners set a video recorder in their home, with timestamping on, and they mark down when they decide to leave for home, at work, and the video records if the dog(s) light-up right then … obviously, it doesn’t matter how many such pairs don’t demonstrate such entanglement: if even 1 pair is so good at demonstrating it, then that falsifies the dogma that “That Can’t Happen” and “That Isn’t Possible”.

• the experiment of having women in some quiet context, and a wired camera that can see them is connected to a switcher, and one, or another, person is watching a monitor, and sometimes that monitor is showing the woman… can she identify when someone is watching her?? IF yes, THEN that, too, falsifies the materialist Scientism/prejudice “That Can’t Happen” and “That Isn’t Possible”.

I haven’t read the book, but only the first few pages…

it is from this book that I got those 2 examples, and yes, they do stand up to replication.

https://www.amazon.com/Science-Set-Free-Paths-Discovery-ebook/dp/B0076PGG6Y/

Since I’ve experienced enough evidence to know when authority-based-“science” is gaslighting me,

and since even physicist Weinberg commented on the fact that 100 ORDERS OF MAGNITUDE ( a Googol, as he observed ) contradiction between evidence & established-theory, re the measured Cosmological Constant, vs The Standard Model of Cosmology

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cosmological_constant_problem

Scientism is unfalsifiable, Science holds that ONE “Black Swan”, that actually exists, FALSIFIES “All Swans Are White”, no matter how Scientism keeps conveniently-measuring only white swans, as a means of “proving” that only white swans exist…

Karl Popper would have called-out that NON-falsifiable dogma ISN’T AND NEVER WAS Science, as would have Carl Sagan…

Evidence convinced me of what I hold to be true, and I’m continuing on that path, until I die, in the hopes of breaking my Soul/CellOfGod/ChildOfGod/Atman from getting perpetually-recycled in Universe.

( deem the existence of awareness to be delusion, and the existence of awareness-beyond-this-body to be delusion, all you want: Mom brought me up Catholic, and it was discovering that some of the Soul-memories I’d recovered were of previous-lives, that blew-up ALL the Abrahamic-assumption-rivers/religions, for me. It took YEARS to adjust to that forced-change-in-worldview.

Notice that Ramakrishna Vivekananda observed, in the 1800’s, White man’s absolute contempt for Universe violating materialism, and refusal to either do the experiment honestly OR to accept the testimony of anybody who actually did the experiment.

https://ramakrishnavivekananda.info/vivekananda/volume_1/addresses_at_the_parliament/v1_c1_why_we_disagreee.htm

Here is a taste of his scientific mind: https://ramakrishnavivekananda.info/vivekananda/volume_1/addresses_at_the_parliament/v1_c1_paper_on_hinduism.htm

I’m not going to bother digging until I find the point, somewhere in Volume 1 of his Complete Works, where he explicitly states that it “takes guts” to do the experiment, and that White man won’t do the experiment: find it yourself, if you care about that. )

IF you prefer authority-based-medicine, and have the gall to ignore the evidence even called-out in one of John Brockman’s books, probably “This Idea Must Die” ( that “evidence based medicine” which provably ISN’T evidence-based, it is authority-based ), then contempt me, categorically, as defective, in your religion.

Here is that article from Edge.org, which was made into a chapter of one of his books:

https://www.edge.org/response-detail/25433

Addiction-to-integrity & addiction-to-Universe’s-actual-bizarre-unfolding/opening both are good addictions, to me.

That IS the assumption-river/religion of Empiricism intersecting Kaizen.

You have your assumption-river/religion, fundamentalist-materialists have theirs, I have mine.

Eternity is going to continue reprpocessing/recycling ALL energies contained within Universe, and I want out, pronto.

Remain within, if that makes you feel great.

That is what evolution means, within a continuum/soul, obviously: your soul sows, through you, your soul reaps, through future “lives”/incarnations. How could it work properly if you just don’t mean anything? MEAN what you mean: self-honesty, no matter how contempted by the currently-fashionable prejudice, is healing!

Notice that Evolution works externally, ie between generations of a species UNTIL human-category-life, and then, because self evolution becomes possible, it becomes possible to “climb the inner mountain”, as buddhism calls it ( naming that inner-mountain “Mount Meru”, but many mistake it for some external thing, nowadays ).

: )

Born autistic, lost 10% of my brain between about 10-16, then, in the last 14y or so ( I’m gaining on 60yo ), a thousand-ish concussions, trying to break my will-to-live with a cudgel, so I could murder my life, but eventually learned that will-to-live is stronger, in this brain, than I am, so I’m stuck living, and therefore am stuck living with the consequences of all-3 waves of brain-injury.

It takes years to grow-in new/replacement brain, but the meditations do speed the process.

Western minds may find convincing in a book named “Super Genes” by geneticist Tanzi & co-author Chopra, https://www.amazon.com/Super-Genes-Astonishing-Optimum-Well-Being-ebook/dp/B00TNDIDNG/ and it cites the science backing its arguments for malleable/earnable healing.

Here is a scientific-paper SHOWING where 20% of the child-onset-“schizophrenic”'s brain is lost, where 15% is lost, where 10% is lost, & where 5% is lost.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2877521/

That doesn’t include all the other damage, at overall, or at micro, scales, that is just PROVING that brain-injury is the primary fact of “schizophrenia”.

Know that the 10% brain-volume-loss has been known-about since the 1920’s.

IF you lost 10% of your brain due to stroke, or aneurism, or a physical spike wound, or due to concussion, they wouldn’t tell you that “it is all in your mind: it is your illness-of-mind, and it ISN’T POSSIBLE for any healing to be real, that too is your illness-of-mind”, but, if a child loses 10% of their brain, through a 5-year-long “forest fire”, as that paper calls it, of epigenetic-error, that child will be told exactly that.

Gaslighting can eat rocks.

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I have now discovered that it ISN’T POSSIBLE, either through my app, or through the web-interface, to EDIT a comment, WHEN one’s revision is too-big.

Therefore, I have to create a completely-new one, in order to revise one.

AAAnd … apparently it ISN’T POSSIBLE to contribute a comment this-long, so I’m now having to break it into pieces, too…

I’m leaving-up my previous edition, so that you can see all the denigrations of it, as they stand.

Revised: Obviously, a 1000-word spur-of-the-moment reply ended-up too convoluted to be anyhow valid or intelligent or sane, in the community’s determination.

Therefore this 2000+ word revision of it.

NONE of the links are “affiliate links” of any kind: they exist so you can directly consider the referent I’m identifying, AND so you can read reviews of that referent, yourself.

ToC:

• Solitude

• getting away from prejudice/abuse/gaslighting, including by doctors & Western Medicine as a whole, as much as I can.

• discovering that the Ayurvedic claim that there are 3 fundamental-metabolisms ( as well as 4 mixed-metabolisms ) is hard, testable fact, and this immensely improved the healingness of my food, once I understood.

• discovering that there are 3 epigenetic conditions underlying most of “psychiatry”, which rejects this testable-fact, and that both the Undermethylated-DNA-disorder treatment & the Pyrrol-disorder treatment testably, provably, work.

• Empiricism/Objectivity intersection-with Kaizen: the only TRUE assumption-river/religion is the intersection of Empiricism/Objectivity with Kaizen, Kaizen being relentless rational evolution.

To all the Western Medicine & Scientism gaslighters that hold it to be established that “there never has been, and isn’t, ANY evidence of brain-healing in adults”, read these books by Dr. Norman Doidge, IF you’ve the intellectual-integrity to do so:

https://www.amazon.com/Brains-Way-Healing-Discoveries-Neuroplasticity-ebook/dp/B00KWG9L2A/

https://www.amazon.com/Brain-That-Changes-Itself-Frontiers-ebook/dp/B000QCTNIW/

AND know that this is the guy who nuked “the established Medical Knowledge that That Can’t Happen”, when he woke-up from a coma, because he had GROWN A REPLACEMENT CORPUS CALLOSUM 'ROUND THE BACK OF HIS BRAIN.

https://www.newscientist.com/article/dn9474-rewired-brain-revives-patient-after-19-years/

I spent several YEARS intermittently-catatonic with brain-injury, and was gaslighted by doctors that there was no brain-injury, and that it was “my mental illness” to believe that I could make my brain heal.

It seems obvious to me, that I did ditch their drugging, and haven’t been much-of-the-time-catatonic since last-century.

It seems obvious to me that that fact is, itself, objective, factual evidence.

My 3 layers of brain-injury are:

• Autism ( you can read about the brain-damage in terms of amygdala being 2x the normal size, so the amygdala-to-cortex-ratio is off by factor-of-2, you can read about the wrong-number-of-microcolumns, & the wrong-height-of-microcolumns on the cortex, you can read about our faceblindness, you can read about how eye-contact is emotional-violence to us, you can read about how social-process-circuitry is broken in us, you can SEE for yourself the autistic-bodylanguage in Richard Feynman’s videos, and even-more-extremely in Temple Grandin’s TED talks, etc. )

• “acute, child-onset ‘schizophrenia’” ( I will be linking to a paper SHOWING that that is brain-injury, according to medical-research scans, later. The cause of that 5-year-long wave-of-cell-apoptosis brain-decimation is, according to the evidence I’ve got, epigenetic, and both mitigatable-before-it-hits and mitigatable-after-the-fact, as my obvious recovery would testify, outside fundamentalist Scientism. )

• when the bullying-prejudice’s gaslighting got too-strong, I began trying to cudgel-my-will-to-live-to-death, so that I could then murder my life, as a means of teaching the Soul/CellOfGod/Atman that was having my life to GROW THE FUCK UP AND STOP INDULGING IN SUCH ABUSE-TOY LIVES. I failed, obviously, and now have bad memory-problems as a result of about 1000-ish hard-concussions with weapons, of whatever was ready-to-hand, through more than a decade.

What worked:

• Solitude.

Many YEARS of Solitude & Isolation.

Getting away from the abuser/prejudice/gaslighting, and since it is normal-culture, itself, whose prejudice is my fundamental abuser, then getting away from everybody, for years, gave me the means to continue existing, eventually living, & even healing.

I don’t expect solitude to work for anybody other-than the ones that “Enneagram” calles a “5”.

( Richard Rohr commented that monasteries are filled with enneagram-5’s: he was right. )

That, combined with Frawley’s ayurvedic appropriate-to-one’s-metabolism ingredients food, which massively helped my health,

IF you’ve the intellectual-integrity to DO the experiment, THEN https://www.amazon.com/Ayurvedic-Healing-Comprehensive-David-Frawley-ebook/dp/B003TO5EF0/ and https://www.amazon.com/Yoga-your-Type-Ayurvedic-Approach-ebook/dp/B0028UBEVO/ BOTH are required for necessary-and-sufficiently-complete understanding:

the “Ayurvedic Healing” book includes the best test-checklist I know-of, and it is the ingredients-lists that make the book into scientific-experiment’s basis:

Simply discover which of the 7 possible metabolic-types you are, then, IF you are not of the all-3-mixed-together one, THEN you can do the experiment thusly:

1. identify the ingredients, the cooking-methods, and the balance-of-kinds-of-ingredients that is most-pacifying for your metabbolism/dosha, AND
2. identify the ones that are most inappropriate for your metabolism/dosha, AND
3. prepare pairs of dishes, such that you have 2 complete, though small, meals, for yourself, AND
4. sit down without distractions, & see if you can identify your body’s reaction to the different dishes
5. honestly consider your results.

I consider the probability of Frawley’s book ( and NOT ANYTHING of the bullshit “ayurveda” from the internet! ) of being as stunningly-accurate in its prediction of what would be beneficial vs harmful to be extremely low: it was TOO consistently & improbably right.

It has proven, through the years, to remain so, as I’ve broken my metabolism from the one I spent nearly 1/2 century in, and then I broke that one, and so on, ending-up in a mixed metabolism.

Having that ingredients-list on me, when I was shopping, improved my health significantly, no matter how much contempt/prejudice Western Medicine has for such evidence.

They won’t do the experiment, because they already “know” that “That Can’t Happen!” and “That Isn’t Possible!”, which, exactly as many have noted since the 1800’s, is one of several White prejudices.

& William J. Walsh’s “Nutrient Power” book, which really oughta be corrected, a bit…

https://www.amazon.com/Nutrient-Power-Heal-Biochemistry-Brain-ebook/dp/B00J75IQUA/

I replicated both his Undermethylated-DNA-disorder treatment and his Pyrrol-disorder treatment, each 4 times, and at-least 2 different ways.

Undermethylated-DNA-disorder: enteric-coated SAM-e, 40mins before breakfast, with clear water ( or tea, but NO carbs/food ) worked in 3 months, and Methionine worked in 4 months. The only times in my life I’ve ever experienced ZERO stress, which was awesome.

Takes-away my academic-drive, though, so I only would use Methionine now to “take the edge off”, if the stress of Undermethylation-distortion were gimping me or my life.

*** END OF PART1 ***

Here is an article which was included in John Brockman’s book:

https://www.edge.org/response-detail/25433

on how too-much “evidence-based” medicine isn’t replicable.

I trust what TESTS to be true, as that is the best religion of all: empiricism.

Shove your gaslighting, ppl…

https://www.newscientist.com/article/dn9474-rewired-brain-revives-patient-after-19-years/

He grew a replacement corpus-callosum 'round the back of his brain.

“no evidence” is a lie.

Read Dr. Norman Doidge’s books, if you’ve sufficient intellectual-integrity to do so:

https://www.amazon.com/Brains-Way-Healing-Discoveries-Neuroplasticity-ebook/dp/B00KWG9L2A/

https://www.amazon.com/Brain-That-Changes-Itself-Frontiers-ebook/dp/B000QCTNIW/

I spent several years much-of-the-time-intermittently-catatonic with brainloss, a few decades ago:

Recovery isn’t mere-makebelieve, as Scientism so authoritatively asserts,

…and being gaslighted by people who are adamant that “no evidence exists” when it’s staring them in the face, is insulting.

Scientism can go gaslight other people:

I know the difference between authority-based-“science”, properly called Scientism, and ACTUAL-EVIDENCE-based Science.

“Listen, twit: I’m sorry that…”

: P

The ONLY way that peace could have been earned, in the West Bank, is…

• an independent ( UN ) government, that wouldn’t tolerate EITHER side’s abuse, and systematically silenced bullying from the place
• ALL necessary & sufficient infrastructure, healthcare, etc, in-place, AND NEUTRAL ( no Hamas, no Israel, NO politics in it: ONLY neutral facilitation-of-healthy-civil-process )
• keep this silencing-of-any-bullying for 2-4 generations, until the enmity-addicted people were all out-from-power
• THEN form a sane local-of-the-people government, gradually ceding from 1 to the other, celebrating the victory-against-prejudice ( on both sides ).

Neither side would tolerate/allow that.

TTBOMK, Israel has maintained about 100 dead Palestinians for every dead Israeli Jew, for many years, there is some sites on the 'web that have numbers for that, btw.

There is ZERO hope for any peace there, thanks to enmity being the addiction of sooo many, on both sides, who have authority, and therefore who use their authority to multiply enmity’s reach throughout the cultures.

A “church of hatred & evil” that situation has become.

Heartbreaking waste of God-given LivingPotential & LivingOpportunity, from both populations…

: \

Solitude.

Many YEARS of Solitude & Isolation.

Getting away from the abuser/prejudice, and since it is normal-culture, itself, whose prejudice is my fundamental abuser, then getting away from everybody, for years, gave me the means to continue living.

That, combined with Frawley’s ayurvedic appropriate-to-one’s-metabolism ingredients food, which massively helped my health,

& William J. Walsh’s “Nutrient Power” book, which really oughta be corrected, a bit…

I replicated both is undermethylated-DNA-disorder treatment and his pyrrol-disorder treatment, each 4 times, and at-least 2 different ways.

Undermethylated-DNA-disorder: enteric-coated SAM-e, 40mins before breakfast, with clear water ( or tea, but NO carbs/food ) worked in 3 months, and Methionine worked in 4 months. The only times in my life I’ve ever experienced ZERO stress, which was awesome. Takes-away my academic-drive, though, so I only would use Methionine now to “take the edge off”, if the stress of undermethylation-distortion were gimping me or my life.

Pyrrol-disorder ( amygdala-hijack always pressuring, and ambushing/breaking one into PTSD-RAGE, with any “straw that broke the camel’s back” ), was treated best with the mixture of Zinc Gluconate, Zinc Picolinate, Arachidonic-acid-precursor Evening Primrose Oil ( 2 big capsules / day ), and P5P form of one of the Vitamin B’s. This gave me the ONLY experience I’ve ever had, in my life, of not-fighting-the-pressure-of-pending-amygdala-hijack-every-second, and it left me … HAPPY. Never experienced anything like that, before… Why’d I quit it? I’m a Vajrayana, & meditation must be my primary-weapon of self-conquering, not pills, AND taking Zinc every 6 hours was a brutal regime, and it was razor’s-edge chemical-balance to maintain. Walsh is right that people with pyrrol-disorder ( which wrongly eradicates zinc from our bodies, leaving too-little for normal management of copper, or for methylation-of-DNA for that matter ) require dangerous ( to others! ) levels of metals-intake to reach correct-balancing between copper & zinc. I was taking enough to probably kill any non-pyrrol-disorder person: 4x the Tolerable Upper Limit. It worked, though, exactly as Walsh indicated.

So:

Solitude, & systematically healing food, & the corrections for 2 epigenetic-disorders that Western Medicine won’t allow are real ( because it’d GUT authority-based psychiatry if the evidence were admitted ), that demonstrated exactly what actually is wrong, and gave me leverage in owning my life, more completely.

EVIDENCE-based knowing.

.: Scientific Method is itself one of the therapies I broke the gaslighting of doctors ( and medical-professional parents ) with, and so must be considered a valid therapy, too.

Kaizen, aka relentless evolving, as one’s personal Religion. ( my cosmology is Vajrayana, simply because Universe’s-speech, aka Evidence, broke the worldviews I was brought-up in. Ramakrishna Vivekananda too contempted the prejudice masquerading as “science”, that I call Scientism, which presumes materialism, and therefore presumes that Awareness/Knowing/Meaning/Will can’t be real, but that is prejudice: all those are testable and objectively-real.

Some have even tested entanglement in the macro-scale by experiment:

• the experiment of having dog-owners set a video recorder in their home, with timestamping on, and they mark down when they decide to leave for home, at work, and the video records if the dog(s) light-up right then … obviously, it doesn’t matter how many such pairs don’t demonstrate such entanglement: if even 1 pair is so good at demonstrating it, then that falsifies the dogma that “That Can’t Happen” and “That Isn’t Possible”.
• the experiment of having women in some quiet context, and a wired camera that can see them is connected to a switcher, and one, or another, person is watching a monitor, and sometimes that monitor is showing the woman… can she identify when someone is watching her?? IF yes, THEN that, too, falsifies the materialist Scientism/prejudice “That Can’t Happen” and “That Isn’t Possible”.

Since I’ve experienced enough evidence to know when authority-based-“science” is gaslighting me, and since even physicist Weinberg commented on the fact that 100 ORDERS OF MAGNITUDE contradiction between evidence & established-theory, re the measured Cosmological Constant, vs The Standard Model of Cosmology

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cosmological_constant_problem

Scientism is unfalsifiable, Science holds that ONE “Black Swan”, that really exists, FALSIFIES “All Swans Are White”, no matter how Scientism keeps conveniently-measuring only white swans, as a means of “proving” that only white swans exist…

Karl Popper would have called-out that NON-falsifiable dogma ISN’T AND NEVER WAS Science, as would have Carl Sagan…

Evidence convinced me of what I hold to be true, and I’m continuing on that path, until I die, in the hopes of breaking my Soul/CellOfGod/ChildOfGod/Atman from getting perpetually-recycled in Universe.

IF you prefer authority-based-medicine, and have the gall to ignore the evidence even called-out in one of John Brockman’s books, probably “This Idea Must Die” ( that “evidence based medicine” which provably ISN’T evidence-based, it is authority-based ), then contempt me, categorically, as defective, in your religion.

Addiction-to-integrity & addiction-to-Universe’s-actual-bizarre-unfolding/opening both are good addictions, to me.

You have your assumption-river/religion, fundamentalist-materialists have theirs, I have mine.

Eternity is going to continue reprpocessing/recycling ALL energies contained within Universe, and I want out, pronto.

Remain within, if that makes you feel great.

That is what evolution means, within a continuum/soul, obviously: your soul sows, through you, your soul reaps, through future “lives”/incarnations. How could it work properly if you just don’t mean anything? MEAN what you mean: self-honesty, no matter how contempted by the currently-fashionable prejudice, is healing!

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Born autistic, lost 10% of my brain between about 10-16, then, in the last 14y or so ( I’m gaining on 60yo ), a thousand-ish concussions, trying to break my will-to-live with a cudgel, so I could murder my life, but eventually learned that will-to-live is stronger, in this brain, than I am, so I’m stuck living, and therefore am stuck living with the consequences of all-3 waves of brain-injury.

It takes years to grow-in new/replacement brain, but the meditations do speed the process.

( Western minds may find convincing in a book named “Super Genes” by geneticist Tanzi & co-author Chopra, and it cites the science backing its arguments for malleable/earnable healing )

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The purpose of life, is understanding.

Elemental bits of unconscious soul-awareness want to have their own experiencings, so they get caught in conceptions/lives, and have, at first, unconscious experiencings ( like a mass-of-bacteria or something ), and eventually that particular soul/atman evolves until it accidentally coincides with a human-category-life, and then, suddenly, it has self-determination/free-will/significant-karma, so now it becomes a pinball in the Universe-game…

Being fired around by the meanings it emitted into Universe, it tries applying unconsciousness-answers, and they just make things worse…

Eventually, it has reabsorbed sooo many meanings, that it becomes understanding/wise, and it realizes that this birth/striving/sickness/death cycle seems deranged, and desiring this endless cyclical-process is deranged, so it begins earning the yogas of mind, meaning, will, intent, etc, and then earns its ability to lift itself from the whole-process, up into aware-nonengaging, which is called “Blissful Clear Light” awareness, and it can simply dissolve into OceanOfAllAwakeSouls, seeing an endless-stream of Universes go by, every one crammed with unconscious & semi-conscious souls/atmans, who haven’t yet earned their dissolving-into-the-ocean-of-AWARENESS that religious-types call “God”, and … all souls Realize.

Endless stream of countless souls, each getting its own cycle-of-lives, reaping what it sowed, no matter how many “lives” ago the sowing-of-that-meaning was…

the processing is perfectly efficient.

The Christian bible’s “Jacob’s Ladder” was a depiction of souls climbing “down” into matter & “up” from unconsciousness…

The Christian bible’s “Prodigal Son” parable was about an individual soul/atman doing its down/up process: when it got fed-up with the false-answers, it turned within ( remember the root-guru of Christianity told them “The Kingdom of God is Within”, telling them to be meditating ), and “climbing the inner-mountain”, to use a buddhist phrase…

The Abrahamic religions use baptism to symbolize a soul immersing itself in unconsciousness & matter, then coming up/out of its unconsciousness…

The thing is, souls who haven’t experienced anything, want to experience their meanings, and have their understandings, but they can’t believe that “suffering” or “harm” etc are “real”, so they dive-in, and try holding to symbols, which, of course, doesn’t work…

Again, the Christian bible has an excellent symbol representing the truth:

in Revelations, John is given the Book Of Truth to eat, and he eats it, and it is syrupy-sweet in his face, but bitter in his belly, exactly as Truth itself is:

Symbolic-“truth” is naive/sweet, but real Truth is bitter, hard-earned, good aversion-therapy.

So, what to do, then?

Face into karma, face into one’s evolution, as human-category-lives are extraordinarily-rare in Universe, so make maximal use of what glorious opportunity you’ve got.

Mom brought me up Catholic, but I experienced some memories that didn’t even fit human-category-life, and, years-later, discovered they were soul-memories of other kinds of lives, which blew-up all the Abrahamic-religions, for me.

Want to get a hornet/wasp/bee out of your home?

Their sentience loves swimming ( it feels like swimming: sentience feels wet, in that kind of life ) into luminance & openness, so, simply darken/block all the ways you don’t want 'em going, and light up where you do want them going, and make certain that no scent is overriding their free-will, and they should leave your home.

That method doesn’t work with other families of insects, btw, so the experience-induced-understanding I gained from that soul-memory doesn’t work for representing any other kind of 'em.

Buddha Gautama Shakyamuni was right about fish being really mentally-limited: if you want your soul’s next life to be something other than human, go for the hive-insects, as they have awesome amounts of awareness for such teensy brains.

We only exist as temporary “clothes” that the souls underlying our lives are “wearing”.

Learning/understanding is the whole point of everything.

The desire-for-experiencing of souls is what drives evolution: when that energy expires, the population/culture/civilization/species collapses.

It’s simple, and “our kind” isn’t the center of the Universe, as the various Abrahamic religions all insist we are ( in spite of evidence ).

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Facing into karma, gently but relentlessly pushing oneself to evolve, to see just how competent/complete one can become, to experience as much meaning as one can, within one’s meagre years, you know?

Evolution, internalized.

Among our kind there are 3 dimensions/layers/substances of mind:

• SurfaceMind, which dissipates every few hours
• underlying-LifeMind, which begins forming at conception, and shatters in death
• underlying-the-LifeMind Soul/CellOfGod/Atman/ChildOfGod/Rigpa, that ALL lives have driving them, until they die, when it detaches/goes-its-own-way…

Huston Smith’s brilliant & profound book “World Religions” gave much of this, in its Hindu & Buddhist chapters, btw, in case you want some source who is established.

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