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I like American music. Do you like American music? I like American music, too.

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Cake day: July 1st, 2023

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  • cash is disgustingly filthy and basically only good for criminal transactions

    As waitress, I hate dealing with it — making change takes a lot of time and breals up the flow of service. At a good restaurant the hand sinks are placed well enough that washing hands after is pretty seamless, but I’ve worked at shops where I had to run all the way back the the dish pit after every cash transaction. And the worst part is the knowing winks like “I know you prefer cash” with the implication I’m a tax cheat. Fuck you, asshole! You’re just making more work for me! Now I have to log this myself and report it separately from my W-2s.



  • I conceive of myself as a decision-making process. I’m not my body and I’m not my mind and I’m not my feelings, but at the same time I am not myself without those things; they are the filters that give the (imperfect) inputs to my decisions and execute the (imperfect) outputs of those decisions, and with different filters I would make different decisions.

    The above is a very Stoic way of viewing the situation, and you’re welcome to read more.

    To address your own situation, you seem to be concerned with with what I’ll call “authenticity”: are these my real feelings, is this how I really think. Don’t be. Authenticity is a trap. Human nature is kinda shitty. You can be better than it. That’s not an act or a fake; that’s ethics.

    Whether you feel depressed because the world sucks or the world seems to suck because you’re medically depressed, the answers are the same: Make the world better, make yourself better (by medication if necessary). It’s okay to have something wrong with you; we all do. But you gotta try to make it better. If I don’t wear my glasses to correct my nearsightedness, that doesn’t make me noble, just impaired. But at the same time, it may seem that the world outside my window is blurry not because I forgot my glasses, but because I need to wash the window. Sometimes one or another is enough, sometimes you need to do both.