

Good-at-stuff != Good-person
You owe it to others to try to be a good person, or at least, not a deliberately bad one. That is the social contract we all have to sign.
You only owe it to yourself to be good-at-stuff, at least you should if not for capitalism but that’s besides the point.
Not everyone can be good-at-stuff, but everyone can try to be a good-person.
If they succeed in the latter so much it causes them to fail at the former due to a sense of superiority and over-inflated egos then they have failed more spectacularly at an easier task than you.
At least that’s my take on it.
Now with the pep talk out of the way, practically speaking - you need to start making an exit out of that environment. Once they catch on they will no doubt pick on the odd one out, and the fact you’re already insecure will make you that much more an easy target. So I’d say go before this whole thing blows up, just my 2 cents.





Hope you’re asking theoretically.
In the UK, they make you pledge allegiance to serve the crown at the citizenship ceremony, which symbolically establishes that your loyalties lie with the British throne and therefore the state.
In practice, if drafted or if I for some reason volunteer, I would side with whoever I actually sided with morally and ideologically.
e.g. I’d choose the West over the current Fascist Russian regime, but theoretically back a progressive Russia against a Fascist West and so on.
This could mean anything from actively serving to dodging the draft to civilian resistance in case of occupation.
Theoretically a foreign legion isn’t anything too uncommon. There were some Russians fighting alongside Ukraine against Russia last I checked. Being in that case a Ukrainian citizen would only help.
In case of service I imagine there would be the problem of inevitable racism towards me from the natives while in service if people of my nationality/ethnicity are the current enemy, especially if it’s like the Japanese internment camps in the US level of hate, so that would be a consideration, plus more practical/logistical matters like which language I can actually speak properly enough to function in critical situations etc.
This is an interesting question though, is there historical accounts of such groups like this I wonder?