This crap is what makes you lose faith in humanity. Granted there are people who are against Israel(jews that are non-zionist etc), but countries like USA are encouraging. How is this different from the one Austrian painter wanting a state for the “aryan race” whilst driving out everyone else, though he is to blame for this crazy the impact he has had. Though you can only hope all these people get justice.
I am not profressional but maybe ADHD or lack of focus/too many distractions. You should talk to your friends/family if not maybe a professional. And also dont be too harsh on yourself everyone makes mistakes albeit some more than others maybe you just need some good habits or a cooping mechanism. Have a good day and cheer up bro.