yeah, lets also get rid of evelators, escalators and wheelchair ramps, because why should we care about people that can’t walk.

of fucking course it’s societies responsibility to work for the people that make it up and of fucking course that’s often not the case regardless of ones bodily configuration. the world is full of processes that don’t serve anyone and tackling those is what’s called progress.

but hey, whatever, live’s probably fine for you right now, so all must be perfect.

I am the last one to claim that adhd is not a disability, because i have to fight that freaking flipper machine of a brain daily in order to do things i want to do, but the bad comes with good and i think some changes in everyday processes and expectations would benefit a lot of people no matter if they are neuro-divergent or ordinary brained.

so no, “chemical inbalance” is not the end of the story, neither for treating adhd nor for society being able to utilize it’s people to the best of their abilities in a sustainable fashion.

Inability to settle on the right words: I’ll write something and think that what I wrote could be written better or differently and then I keep on writing and deleting and rephrasing with different words. Thus making very slow progress.

editing is not writing, don’t edit before you are done writing the first version of your story, and editing gets easier after the first enarmourment for a story has worn off anyway. sounds easier than it is, but the voice in your head telling you that you are writting badly is not your friend and not helping, even if it might be right sometimes.

Problems with continuity: I might think up a somewhat long plot line. But I have to write the whole thing in one go because if I don’t then my brain will splinter the story into multiple possible story branches when I stop and I am unable to choose the path to follow.

have a look at the “snowflake method” and learn about various story structures to help plan the beats of your story. if planning far ahead is not your jam jot down some notes for what happens next, or if you can’t decide turn the possibilities into yes/no-questions flip a coin and run with whatever fate decided. in general take notes, can’t trust that brain to produce the same output twice.

Lose interest in continuing if I take a break: If I stop writing mid way and take a break from writing for an extended period of time, I am unable to find the motivation to resume. Mostly because trying to catchup with the story up to that point feels hard. I have this same tendency with video games as well where I don’t feel like picking up a game after an extended period of absence.

thats normal, if a story can’t reignite the spark that lead to starting it in the first place, that story won’t be finished. keep it somewhere you see it from time to time, it might call you someday and if it does not that’s fine, most stories are never finished. if you want to finish something badly try to set a deadline you cant easily ignore, i turned short stories into gifts (a long with a ‘real’ gift) sometimes just to have a reason why it must be done on day x. the story was not necessarily for the person i gifted it to, but i needed the pressure.

are they allowed to officially diagnose you and prescribe meds? if not they might atleast be able to point you to someone who can do this.

you should also ask if they can offer behavioral therapy, which (often together with meds) can be a great help. if they cannot offer this you’d might need another therapist.

emotional dysregulation is a common symptom of adhd, meaning intensity of (initial) emotional responses can go overboard.

researching CBT, cognitive-behavioral-therapy, don’t make this weird!, will yield tons of material, but that’s a journey best undertaken with someone you trust.

had this during exams and such.

take a step back, check if the intensity of the emotion is warranted and let it wash over you, extreme emotions tend to be short lived.

i was not about to die, even if my brain suggested that, and it had to relent after me being still alive after 5 minutes sitting right there before my tasks.

my problems started when i would ‘feed’ those emotions by fantasizing about the impending catastrophe or giving in and acting on them, by fleeing the class room for example.

i guess this would be harder in a social encounter, but the first step is allways realizing that an emotion is to intense, once that’s done its easier to return to reason and not instinct.

tl;dr :

1. realize that emotion is there
2. experience the emotion
3. move on.

took me a lot of therapy to start at step 1 and not going from step 2 to “do a stupid thing you’ll regret in 5 minutes”

libreELEC, but that’s just a distribution shipping kodi.

you might be able to utilize steam big picture/steamOS with different browser shortcuts and applications added as non-steam games to open streaming services in kiosk mode or other mediaplayers , that way you’d have good controller support, if you create control schemes for various things.

first: don’t stress it, sustainable weight loss is slow everything else will end up with you regaining the weight when you stop with whatever hyped up diet or hardcore sports program you tried.

find an activity, that burns calories that you enjoy doing, and do it because it’s fun. try new things when something is not fun.

identify a high calorie source that you can somewhat easily eliminate, for many people that’s sugary drinks (including fruit juice).

get yourself to step on a scale every morning. weight is on a downwards trend week to week? you are on the right track. keep doing what you are doing.

weight goes up sometimes? don’t worry that happens we are running a marathon here. if it keeps increasing you’ll either can do more activities that burn calories or find another calorie source you can cut back on.

It might also help, to either eat slower, because “being not hungry” has a delay or drink a glass of water before every meal, so you’ll feel full faster.

and always remember, this is not a sprint, sometimes you’ll gain weight, that does not mean you failed, you don’t start back at zero.

i am probably not the best example, as i never finished my degree, but studiying is the one thing where pomodoro timers were actual helpful for me, but nothing was better than having a small group of people to study with.

Working on problems together on a whiteboard was almost magical, because so much stayed in my brain without totaly draining my batteries.

other than that keeping things fresh and fun is important, to this day i’ll draw pictures on my notes when going through them, emphasize stuff by putting it in speech bubbles or write stupid stuff in foot notes.

i also sometimes experiment with different note taking techniques, but it’s mostly bullet points.

define “adhd meds”.

Not taking a stimulant shouldn’t cause anxiety or depression, but going cold turkey for antidepressants might after a short while and just not taking those is nothing i’d recommend in any case.

does authentik offer an option to preview a jwt for a given user? might be as simple as that the claim is not named “ocisAdmin” or is not a toplevel entry in the jwt.

not an authentik user, but after skimming their docs i think you have to:

1. create a role “ocisAdmin” via authentiks admin interface
2. give this role to a group in the admin interface or create one.
3. assign a user thats supposed to be an owncloud admin to the group

it might be that you also have to define somekind of mapper to include this in the informations owncloud receives from authentik, but as i said i only skimmed the docs and would personally just try it without the mapper.

oh, thats good to know, forgejo seems way nicer for self hosting than the limited gitlab open source core.

https://distribution.github.io/distribution/

is an opensource implementation of a registry.

you could also self host something like gitlab, which bundles this or sonatype nexus which can serve as a repository for several kinds of artifacts including container images.

try different meds or take them at a different time of day, many people experience a “crash” when stimulance like adderall or medikinet where off.

I take part of my meds in the afternoon (unless i forget it again…) because that way they where off closer to bed time.

never heard of it and assuming you mean streamlit.io

the framework itself seems quite nice, even if pretty much only tailored to presenting data in a good looking way, but i’d never run anything on their cloud service.

By making Provider Content available and/or accessible through the Service, Provider hereby grants to Company a non-exclusive, irrevocable, transferable, sub-licensable, worldwide, royalty-free license to use, display, publish, perform, reproduce, distribute, copy, modify, and create derivative works of Provider Content in connection with operating and providing the Service.

yeah, no screw that i am more than willing to share code, but nothing more.

and it’s probably easier to find help for flask or django on the internet, both are well known frameworks that see industry use for years, where streamlit seems to be very young and less known(plus the aggressive pointing to there ‘free’ cloud stuff)

yep, turning this into a webapp using flask or django seems like a good way to learn more.

the flask mega guide

or obey the testing goat provide good guidance for someone getting into web apps with python.

obey the testing goat is more focused on teaching test driven development though, but writing good tests is a great skill regardless when you write them.

I don’t want to take away from Matés book helping you/being a good read, but they are a layman when it comes to adhd.

Dr. Russel Barkley often has videos analysing Matés opinions, which are well worth a watch (and he is great with quoting sources so free rabbit holes disappear into)

e.g.: Playlist of his Maté videos, beware youtube link