i know it’s not just “teenage hormones” (18f). i cannot yet be given a diagnosis on anything though i will be talking to a psychiatrist. this is really fucked up, i hate this so much.

i’ll be full of energy, all these ideas and motivation. i’ll talk really fast and have no need for sleep.

then, i’ll get depressed. i was doing GREAT all week and today, but now i’m about to cry simply because my friend only spends time with her friend group and never me. i was mad at that and suddenly ready to block everyone but i feel guilty and im mad at myself for being this way.

i know she can hang out with her trio, i know we’re still friends. i normally wouldn’t be mad but i truly think i’m going insane.

  • grasshopper_mouse@lemmy.world
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    7 hours ago

    I’ve had the same experience, though only for about the past 10 years, and at 45 now, it’s more like there’s a single day in any given month where the crazy depression/dark thoughts and rage at the simplest stupid shit occurs, and by now I’m able to stop in the moment and recognize that it’s just temporary, and it always resolves itself in an hour or two. I can’t wait for menopause to hit and for all this shit to be over.