i know it’s not just “teenage hormones” (18f). i cannot yet be given a diagnosis on anything though i will be talking to a psychiatrist. this is really fucked up, i hate this so much.
i’ll be full of energy, all these ideas and motivation. i’ll talk really fast and have no need for sleep.
then, i’ll get depressed. i was doing GREAT all week and today, but now i’m about to cry simply because my friend only spends time with her friend group and never me. i was mad at that and suddenly ready to block everyone but i feel guilty and im mad at myself for being this way.
i know she can hang out with her trio, i know we’re still friends. i normally wouldn’t be mad but i truly think i’m going insane.
If this has been going on since your teens, it sounds like bipolar disorder. With the help of psychiatric prescriber, trying a course of lithium can be diagnostic; differentiating Bipolar and ADHD. Get a second opinion. Mixed, rapid cycle and atypical symptoms are hard for clinicians without lots of practical experience to discern from comorid conditions or differential diagnosis like ADAD.
Bipolar disorder can profoundly be affected by menstrual cycle, and/or hormonal birth control.