i know it’s not just “teenage hormones” (18f). i cannot yet be given a diagnosis on anything though i will be talking to a psychiatrist. this is really fucked up, i hate this so much.

i’ll be full of energy, all these ideas and motivation. i’ll talk really fast and have no need for sleep.

then, i’ll get depressed. i was doing GREAT all week and today, but now i’m about to cry simply because my friend only spends time with her friend group and never me. i was mad at that and suddenly ready to block everyone but i feel guilty and im mad at myself for being this way.

i know she can hang out with her trio, i know we’re still friends. i normally wouldn’t be mad but i truly think i’m going insane.

  • Infinite@lemmy.zipEnglish
    13·
    2 days ago

    Definitely sounds like bipolar or something close. See a psychologist ASAP; faster cycles can be a warning sign. You’re not insane, you just have an unreliable narrator!

    A few things I’ve learned from being married to a lady with bipolar for 16 years:

    • it’s not your fault, but it is your responsibility
    • not being able to trust your brain sucks, but knowing it can be a liar helps
    • you can be happy and productive and have a normal life
    • take your pills, especially if you don’t feel like it
    • self-medicating has trade-offs - try to stick with TV or other distractions instead of things that can have consequences like drugs or sex

    Good luck on your journey!

    • oppy1984@lemm.eeEnglish
      1·
      2 days ago

      I have two friends and an ex girlfriend who are bipolar and this was my first thought too. I can’t really add much to what you said other than to stress seeing a phycologist ASAP and take your meds especially when you don’t want to.