I’m on lemmy for 15 days now( as you can see in the picture). But this one is 1 day old because I chose to shift to this instance. I’m on mastodon too.

I’ve known lemmy for more than a year but didn’t thought of opening an account because that time, the userbase, feed wasn’t like how I intended.

Recently I’ve decided to shift from centralised social media( facebook, twitter, reddit, telegram etc) to this kind of decentralised, medium userbased but filled with real people kind of social media. Because I felt the need to change.

I’m a male, currently 22. Definitely not a troll account.

And yes, English is not my native language.

I understand that have a lot to unpack. But ‘trust’ isn’t my best suite. Even with a psychiatrist or another known people. The things I’ve told about myself here is just the surface. So it isn’t that personal. I myself am searching if I really have any mental condition like ADHD.

I’ve never taken any kind of psychiatric medications before. But I’ve heard about a specific one, adderall. I’m looking forward to your speculations and advices about this specific medicine if you had taken any.

I’ve no intention to immorally get my hands on adderall just because I was hyped on getting better.

Psychiatrist is available in my hometown. But I’ve decided to just match my symptoms to any of the syndromes and to take prescribed medications for now.

My city makes me feel suffocated. Everytime I go out for a walk, I pray to God that I don’t encounter any known people( e.g. neighbors, relatives, classmates). Known people around me, those extrovert classmates, their presence makes me suffocated. I want to start all over again, with new sets of environment, new sets of people.

That’s why, opening myself up to a psychiatrist in my hometown is close to impossible for me.