Whatever I do/create I destroy it. Right now this is happening with my playlists. And it’s absurd, because no one listens to them anyway but I keep having days when I feel like I should delete all of them. Then it’s my private notebook. Then it’s what I write, what I paint, movies I kept track of on an app, and the list goes on.
To be totally honest it’s as if I’m afraid I might be insane for keeping these things. Some contain personal things (playlists, notebook) so alright I might want to keep them private, but the real issue is that I do that when I think “oh what will they think?”. I don’t know what to do, it might sound very stupid but this has really been bothering me since forever.
I’ve hated every piece of art I ever created, and everything I ever wrote, until at least a few weeks later.
I’ve learned to control the impulse to delete, until the thing is about a month old.
But I give myself permission to delete anything older than a month old, that I still don’t like.
I also try to only delete stuff by percentage. So if I’m pruning old art or articles, I’ll enforce only deleting the 20% I dislike the most.
This way I know that any piece of work I really hate, I’ll give myself permission to get rid of, eventually, if I still really hate it, later.