I’m kinda neutral. Being bi is great but I hate having to hide it
Back when I was Christian, I hated what I was. I spent my youth “praying the gay away” and all that. As a result, I suffered from depression and anxiety pretty much straight out of the womb.
Then I came out, was ostracized by my Christian family, and everything I was afraid of happening happened.
But you know what? I ended up finding a new family who loves and supported who I am. I married a wonderful woman who loves me in all my trans masc non-binary, bisexual confusion.
I realized that what I hated wasn’t my being queer, what I hated was that my family would never love me unconditionally. Now I love who I am and I honestly feel happier than I ever did performing the cis straight dance.
For a long time I didn’t feel like I was really part of the community. I’m bisexual and have had relationships with other women in the past but I’m married to a man now. I’ve found people in the community who say I’m not really a part of it so I’ve been really hesitant until recently to even try to participate.
It’s interesting being a recovering country gay because I’ve made a lot of lesbian and non binary friends but i still want to do the dating/bf experience :(
I’m not a very social person so for me the worst part is feeling left out of the community. I’m very happy to be queer. But I also live in a place where I don’t always feel comfortable being visible - those experiences make me hate my surroundings, not my identity.