Hi all I need a sanity check.
Diagnosed ADD as a kid, struggled to pay attention and care in school, was on concerta for a decade. Parents would up my dose if my grades went down and expected me to grow out of ADD once I turned 18.
That didn’t happen and my life fell apart and I vowed to never take medication again because I saw it as a conspiracy to sell pills and get people messed up in the head.
After 15 years of emotional dysregulation and crippling anxiety I spoke to a dr and tried an extended release amphetamine yesterday.
My whole world changed. No emotional noise, no background feeling of “I’m a bad person and I don’t know why”, social anxiety is gone (was able to respond to all my messages and even make a phone call AND talk to a cashier!!!). Was able to do tasks I left behind because the anxiety to start was too bad.
I feel like I can do anything I set my mind to now. My self confidence is up. I don’t dread things. I woke up calm. My mind used to be a firehose of thoughts and emotions all at max level. Now it’s calm and orderly and logical.
This seems too good to be true. I didn’t even know existence could be like this. Is this normal? Is it the honeymoon phase? Is it just because I’m taking an amphetamine? I’m beside myself and life feels like I’ve got all the cheat codes now. It seems too good to be true.
This is how i feel on that type. My main issue with it is it stifles my creativity. I am lucid, but dull. Kinda of a showstopper for my work, so I save it for high anxiety and/or extra scatterbrained days. Glad it’s working out for you.
I can see how it stifles creativity. I found it weird and harder to make jokes I usually make. But then again everything feels weird and different. Like I have to relearn how to be haha. Do you get any withdrawal when not taking it? The pharmacist said I could take it just on weekdays but online I’m reading that not taking it will cause withdrawal symptoms. Just curious of your experience.
It will take time for you to acclimate. Eventually it will feel natural and you’ll miss it when it wears off. Or at least I did. I don’t have strong withdrawal aside from some crabbiness, but the lucidity made me want to take it every day when i started.