There are some moments in life in which a sudden self-awareness of happiness hits - a moment in which you step back from yourself and realize that, in that instant, everything is good. A feeling of your consciousness pulling away to make an emotional snapshot of that moment to care for and examine like one would a wounded bird or a nugget of gold.
While I don’t consider my life as a unhappy one, I only have a few of these moments guarded away. The first being at around age 6. My parents were giving me a group hug while we were all singing a family lullaby. My mother was expecting my baby brother at the time and that was the first time the baby’s name was included in the song. I remember feeling detached and floating away while taking in the moment.
The last time I experienced it I had just finished changing the sheets on a new king bed I splurged on after a small windfall. I remember laying on the bedspread and my 2yr old pup hopping on to play around the newly made bed. Instead of ushering him off as I usually did, I just watched him mess up the bedspread.
(I know happiness is not a fixed concept and everyone can have their own definition and experiences, but given my ignorance of the specific word to refer to the instant moment of self-awareness described, I just went with it)
Curious to read your thoughts and experiences.
Before looking into psychology or (god forbid) reactionary existentialism:
potassium (your multivitamin does not have this, supplements are generally inadequate, check the label you will be shocked, get powder online)
magnesium (ditto but also “magnesium oxide” causes gastric issues and is NOT ABSORBED so trust the label even less, when you look online get glycinate)
25-50g of fiber. easiest + cheapest if you live in an unhealthy supermarket area without cheap veggies is psyllium husk, powdered peanut butter (WITH NO ADDED SUGARS!! use in savory dishes), wheat bran, and dried vegetable mixes you can buy from asia
lift weights AND do long very fast walks for posture + eyes. engage your core muscles while you walk
100-300g (yes, 300, but we will never be that ripped now without roids lol, 250 tops prolly, and obv you need some short (protein powders) and long (yogurt, egg whites, meat) chains otherwise you will be too full, beware of doing this with beans sorry) of protein depending on physique. limit fat intake. no sugars. complex carbs and proteins burn 30% of calories as heat, that activity fuels your digestive microbiota.
just a good bedrock before mindset and medication, also look into tianeptine. trust me this will improve your mood enough to realistically gauge what to do next this is foolproof numerous people have told me it works and any doctor should back me up.
oh, and eat fish! so much fish! omega 3s really do work over time. also eat as many plants rich in random antiinflammatory compounds as possible (they taste good, berries are fiber nukes and they are just packed with anticancer stuff)
Hey just wanted to point out this about tianeptine.
" It has been found to act as an atypical agonist of the μ-opioid receptor with clinically negligible effects on the δ- and κ-opioid receptors."