I have a problem that every time i want to start new hobby, i cant work on it for long enough time to develop it into a habit. I quit the hobby i started even less than one month after starting it, even if i am excited and interested in working on it for a long time.
Since i dont know if i really have an adhd, because psychitriastists i went to say that i dont have adhd, despite i have common symptoms like lack of motivation, problems with learning and work, and problem with working on hobbies for a long time, i need to somehow find a way to work on a single hobby for a long time, without meds.
I find that often my hobbies don’t make me feel “I look forward to doing this” before I start, or even “I am enjoying doing this” once I do. But they do make me feel “I’m happy that I did this” after I’ve made some progress.
(This is a very hard lesson for me to truly internalize.)
It is also totally legit to do hobby things out of anger which is the obverse side of the “I’m happy that I did this” coin. Like, “this bothers me so much that I need to do this”. And then it is relief after it is done. Perhaps the less contentment-able (or low tolerance for settling) types of people can harness this power better.