What is a new thing, a new something that you have recently gotten into, or that you have been a long time participant in, that you find very entertaining and fun and time consuming and distracting?
What things would we need to purchase to get into that thing?
How did you get into that thing?
Therapy.
Like, I’m gonna be real with you for a second. I’ve had this little crash out before, but I have actually tried to get therapy, and I have been given an appointment, and I showed up to the appointment, and the therapist fucking did not.
I have literally gone to multiple locations through insurance-approved things, and I have waited my time, and I have made the calls, and I have sent the letters, and I have sent the emails, and I have responded to the emails, and I have done all of the things. And I have been unable to get therapy, and I have decided that, since the universe will not allow me to have therapy, I’m not allowed to have therapy.
In my experience, majority of therapists are garbage. I’ve experienced the same, but once you get one who actually shows up and is actually good at what they do, it’s worth it.
That’s wild. Please keep trying. You. Are. Worth. Every. Effort.
Eta: in the meantime: meditation, some sort of art (paint, photography, pottery, mosaic, a coloring book, sketchbook, doodle, journal, short story etc).